#that would be the third time I'm watching it (currently rewatching with my husband as well)

[running-in-the-dark]

okay but. how am I supposed to ever watch another show again? I'll never love a show this much again. I'll never love all the characters in any show this much again. I'll never have an actual breakdown over a show's final episode again. I just want Leverage forever :(

[rearranged-fanfic]

Update (3/15)

I'm never actually going to get a chapter out on time. Lol. I am resigned to the fact that this is my truth.

So, fun stuff these past three weeks.

The next chapter? I hate it. It has been the bane of my existence for several reasons. I've deleted either the whole thing or massive parts of it no less than six times now. I've probably typed and retyped somewhere between 30K words for this one alone. I'm not happy with it at all. I've already put it off for another week, and I still can't get it the way I want. The perfectionist in me is telling me to pound it out until it's acceptable. The person inside who wants to meet my deadlines is screaming at me to just upload it in its current state and change it later.

I'm finishing it, though. Or, as finished as I can get it in an extra day. So, one more day and it'll be out for you guys to view to your hearts' content.

In other news, while battling frustration with the story, I've tried to distract myself from it so that my anger doesn't bleed into my writing. And I've wound up getting back into one of my old favorite chill games: My Time at Portia. I've put somewhere around 500 hours into it, and still love it. Lol. If you like things like Stardew Valley or Animal Crossing, you'll probably like Portia, too.

I've started rewatching My Hero Academia and Demon Slayer with my husband. Both of those things are living in my head rents free as well, alongside this fic and my game.

So, now I'm resisting the urge to contribute to a smaller, less-saturated fandom or pairing. Like, there are ten million GojoXReader stories, but what about for Arlo? Or Hawks? Or best boi Rengoku Kyojuro? Arrrggggh! The ADHD beckons, and I must resist its call!

I wish I could pause time so that I can write all the things I want to!

Also, I tried to unwind by watching The Boy and the Heron to celebrate its win at the Oscars. And I feel like I'm being gaslit by the world and anime community as a whole. Because it was… not great. Like, it was a genuinely incohesive and confusing movie? The plot was chaotic and nonsensical? The characters weren't very fleshed out? Character motivations suffered due to poor pacing? Emotional payoff was non-existant? The plot "reveals" weren't satisfying? The worldbuilding was lackluster and simultaneously too involved but not involved enough? There was a crappy third-act villain? The English dub is mid (barring Robert Pattinson, who is stellar, TBH); Why the fuck did Christian Bale decide that a Godfather-esque mafioso accent would be fitting for a WW era Japanese man when nobody else in the movie sounds like that?!

IDK… I went in expecting this to be on the same level as Howl's Moving Castle, Princess Mononoke, or Spirited Away. And I feel like we got Tales From Earthsea all over again. Except this time, for whatever reason, it won an award and is being praised as Miyazaki's magnum opus?!

I was actually salty for days. Scratch that; I'm still salty.

So... in conclusion, I'm back, bitches. And I'm vibing to the music of my own internal screaming.

[nightofnyx8]

Thank you for the tag, @jedidragonwarriorqueen!

Three Ships: Twiyor from Spy x Family, Royai from Fullmetal Alchemist, and Elriel from ACOTAR (A Court of Thorns and Roses)

First Ship Ever: I also shipped Percabeth from the moment I read those books. I also remember liking Tohru and Kyo from Fruits Basket, but I can't recall which one came first lol

Last Movie: Spiderman: Across the Spiderverse. I would sell my soul to watch it again for the first time.

Currently Reading: Think of Me by Frances Liardet. A beautifully written story of two lovers trying to find each other throughout WWII and beyond. It makes me laugh and cry all at the same time.

Currently Watching: Pysch :) My husband and I love watching shows together and this is at least the third time I've rewatched the series.

Currently Consuming: Cheese ravioli we made for dinner. Also a couple squares of Ferrero Rocher as I sit down for another writing session.

Currently Craving: Being content with my current job, even though dentistry isn't even close to teaching choir. But I do enjoy helping people and I've learned way more about root canals than I ever wanted to. I'm also getting commissioned more to sing in some local choirs, which I thoroughly enjoy.

tagging @wondrousmay @whateversawesome and @puolain